First of all, hope Dorothy enjoyed her day.
Must MAKE something super cool for her so she wouldn't say I only put in effort in the gifts for guys! LOL!
Just wanna tell her:
You are an awesome friend. Although you always like to tell me "Go die lah" but ya school wun be that fun without you there swearing for the most tiny matters and it wun be that exciting without you spotting hot guys together! Hahas. Its like in the clique, only both of us like doing that. heehee :P Thanks alot for everything since last year. Sharing your food with me during recess in class when I am there complaining that I am hungry; Giving me advice when I had problems with "sensitive" issues. Just wanna say, don't care about what the others comment about you. I know you wouldn't care but ya, you are always the best in our eyes. You will definitely find your prince charming one day. On that day, I think I will be even happier than you. Thanks alot all these while. LOVE YOU LOTS (: (: (: (L) (L) (L)

Anyway today was pretty slack~
Went JP with dad and the little bunch of cute little "devils" in my house, without my mum. She went for school camp. Guess what? The house seems quieter without her at home. What does this imply? My mum makes lots of noise when she's at home! LOL! Shh! Lucky she don't know about this blog. Hahas.
So ya yesterday spent so long typing a super long post and ended up blogger screwed everything up. So sad
and now once again, blogger screwed my long long post again! blogger seriously sucks!
Shall not post here anymore..this is making me ):

I HATE BLOGGER!
IT SUCKS!
I TYPED A LONG LONG LONG POST FOR TODAY AND IT JUST DELETE AWAY ITSELF!
OKAY FORGET IT I SHALL NOT RETYPE ALR ><
): ): ):

Today feels tiring the whole day.
I am energyless in class.
Maybe because I feel unwell? Perhaps bah? Idk.
Anyway nothing much happened in school today. lol

I really don't know how you really feel...
everything just seem so sudden...
It makes me feel insecured...
Although I din want to think it the negative way, but I just carn help but think that I am just a substitute of her...
It just seem so unreal...changing ur feelings so fast makes me think that maybe you are unsure of your own feelings too...
do you really care? or is it all an illusion?
idk...what I know is...if you really took me for a substitute, it will really hurts...

Everything seem so screwed up today... ): ):
I am sick ): ): ):
Can I pon school tomorrow please?
LOL thats an impossible question.
Okay nevermind.. ):

Once upon a time, there is this nice little sweet called Jellybean.
Jellybean met a basket of interesting sweets today.
LOL! so no link. but there's hidden meaning inside.
Happy guessing..lol?

Road Run 2010 was a failure.
It rained almost the whole day.
Early in the morning and I got pissed off by some ___ teacher.
Me: "Can I ask my NP cadets to gather on the stage?"
T: Silence (complete dao)
Me: just walk off
T: Can all BB guys and NPCC gather on the stage now?!
And then we were told to be at the main entrance to help bring in the logistics on the logistics bus that will be coming anytime. This means that the bus should be arriving.
In the end, there is not even a single shit bus except the visitor bus. and all of us were drenched under the rain waiting for the bus and when we called and some went back to ask what to do, the teacher just asked us to continue waiting there. WTH? is like we are all wrenched w/o umbrellas at first and they din even care about our welfare but their stupid logistics?! NP is not a saikang CCA okie? in the first place, why is UG even involved in ROAD RUN? and since we volunteer our help, aren't our welfare supposed to be taken care of? I hope none of the Sec 3s or my clique are sick. Don't want them to be like me now, having flu, sorethroat and cough ><

Anyway just wanna say something here..
I am really sorry about today...
for pangseh'ing you all.
It was unintentional.
I know its not the first time that I pangseh you all
You guys have all the rights to be angry with me.
But can you guys dun be angry with me please?
I don't want you all to be angry...
I am sorry ):

I really dunno...

WEDDING DRESS :D

NP (:
Yesterday Sec 3s got scolded. Didn't know what the TOs and CIs told them but ya just hope they wouldn't be demoralised by it. They are going to be Cadet Leaders soon and we are going to step down soon. Think I will really miss NP alot after we step down. But i believe the Sec 3s will do a good job too. Like I say, they have the potential in them. Its just need to wait for them to let out their potential that is inside them.
Drills session with my mini group was :D
Tian Ci talked quite a lot yesterday and he became more engaged into NP. Was really happy about it. Kang Hui and Kang Wen didn't came late because of Maths Olympian. Kang Hui was in my group and what I can say is, he is a fast learner. Just sometimes will abit lag, since he just learn the rifle drills ytr as he missed out quite a lot previously. Zhi Hui was good too, a very good timer.
Yong Lin, like to joke but then he know when to be serious and his drills are not bad too.
Qin Yin, the only girl in that group but ya its quite nice to teach her drills cos she will just listen and do well. Qi Yuan as usual need leave early and everyone kept teasing him that he's round. Hahas but he really very cute. LOL!
Then Shihan fell, lucky he never injured.
Then that twin of mine, never eat jiu come parade, in the end almost faint. Frightened me like dunno what lor.
Dean as usual with that cool cool look. Talk to him can really die cos he only give less than 5 words reply and his reply can really own me.
Nigel was sick and he still went for PT. He said it was nothing =.=
Andrew, the one who got 2nd for Road Run last year. WOW! I didn't know until ytr. Not bad! He better run on road run.
Top 10 half must be from NP okie?!
then yesterday after parade, din went home with clique. Really sorry ):
because something cropped up last minute and I had to stay. Really sorry.
Jing Zhen cried because of the pressure exerted by higher authorities. Haiz
Then monday need go find mrs lee about the Sec 3s.
I realise I am beginning to like the Sec 3s a lot, even though some may don't like me.
Nevermind, I shall cherish the last few times I had with them before we step down.
Hope we will create a lot of fond and memorable memories (:

Then quite a lot of things happened recently.
Some sad, some happy, some no feelings! LOL
Yesterday got back geo paper. Was rather stunned when I saw the results
17/25. A B3. 1 more mark to A2. I can't believe it that I scored that mark because I don't think I deserved it. I didn't really study a lot. and I only studied last minute. I think people like Eunice deserved this mark more than me because I know she really studied a lot. Didn't know what to say to her when she was quite sad about her marks. Hate this feeling, the loss of words when my good friend is feeling sad and yet I can't really do anything to make her feel better. The only thing I can let her do is to let her suan me so that she will start laughing? Hope she feels better le.
I shall really work hard from now on. I don't really want to care anymore about what people say anymore. Said that I am scandalous, so be it. I know it myself that I talk to guys more but I really don't want to lose any of my friends just because they thought that I put guys before them which is not true. I don't care anymore about bgr. Its like at this age, at this time? Its not really suitable. Seeing friends around me getting sad over the one they like, idk what to say. At least I had let go of what I once thought was a beautiful dream. It doesn't matter if u have a lover at this age anot, dun have so be it. We have friends that love us a lot. Thats enough I guess?
Someone told me: "I would buy u an everlasting rainbow, if I could", love what this person said because that person really understand me a lot.
That person asked me what belated birthday gift I want.
The only thing I said was "Something that is colourful and can make me smile"
And that person told me that. Was quite touched? Hahas.
I think I will miss the days in Nan Hua when I leave...
all the memories I had there with all my friends...
that will be the most beautiful page in my life...

I just discovered today that people actually visit my blog.
WOW such a big discovery eh? lol.
So ya someone told me that someone commented something bad about me on his/her blog.
And that blog owner actually copy and paste what I blogged here to his/her blog.
Should I have a copyrighted system or something? o.o
Anyway went to read the person's blog out of curiosity and was quite surprised to find out about what that person wrote.
Hmm, freedom of speech. How should we define that?
Take for example, people say who hate who, who dislike who...
so does commenting it on a blog means anything?
I wonder if this is a history blog or something whereby we need evidence to "support" your "inference" eh?
Does my post that says I dislike Phua Chu Kang means that I dun like Pang Chu Kien since they have the same initials? If thats the case, I must say you people have excellent inferential skills.
If now I mention "Mr Tan" here, does it refer to Mr Johnathan Tan, Mr Peter Tan or Mr Tan HY? So many people have the same name or same initial.
Does me liking or disliking Phua Chu Kang got to do with any issue about hating anyone? thats like a bit umm ridiculous? I didn't even thought of that when I posted that post and that person actually make such an interesting inference..quite amazing? I did not say it in a sarcastic tone.
So now what I am trying to drive at is,
if someone dislikes you, why bother doing things that will please that person?
if the person already concluded that you will be grouped under the enemies section, why doing so much to try to jump into the friends section when you will only experience replusion force?
Everyone have their own circles of friends, its just seeing if that circle of yours will get bigger, stay the same or shrink. So I would like to say, if you dislike me, go ahead. You have your own rights to dislike me which I could never ever stop. What I wanna say is, I don't dislike nor hate anyone whom I regard as a friend even when they dun regard me as their friend.
So its up to you to decide. I don't really mind if you dislike me or even hate me?
Hahas say the f word if you want. Its just a word (:

So ya before i end off, just wanna thank William for today(:

Question of the day:

What colour is Electric Blue?

Today was tiring after sleeping really late yesterday night, helping a good friend in maths. I am so freaking tired during history lesson that I totally fell asleep. Since Ms Khoo was showing us a video, thats make a lot of us sleep during her lessons. Yea, the video is abit boring since its in black and white but under the environment of all lights off and in an air-conditionered surrounding, who can resist the temptation to lay ur head on the table and proceed into dream land?

So ya got back E maths paper which is totally screwed up. Just don't understand why my E maths sucks so much everytime. Haiz, must really buck up on it. Then after school, went to give the Sec 3s their new relay system.
One word to say about them: "Disappointment"
Seriously, I have no idea how to take them already. Feel like giving up. Maybe this will please some of them who dislike me to the core? Whatever, I don't really care anymore. Whats the use of being nice? Do they treat you the same way in return? Thought that by being nice, they will be nice to listen to me and give me the due respect I should have but ended up, I get none.
Okay enough said, I am really losing hope in them. Initially, I like them a lot. Now, I am at a loss of words. Not because they are not good. They are good, they have the potential to be wonderful leaders, but there's this thing lacking in them.
Nevermind, I shall say no more.
And then during recess, someone just pissed me off with that stupid attitude of his.
Stop using your star 3 badge or the discilpline head of what in council to put others down.
Anyway, I love the present from Evelyn.
Love the Moxy monster :D
Plus the cookie monster :D
Wonder how did she know that I love that collection of monster in Action City.
Hahas thanks alot (:
not in a good mood today so shall stop here...
cya soon...
bye

I thot you would be different...
Your promise to be there when I needed you...
So it was all a lie...

Today had tuition for like almost 1 quarter of the day.
I feel sleepy during Physics tuition just now for the first time.
Normally I would only feel sleepy in A maths tuition because its in the afternoon then its like nap time. Hahas.
So ya hmm FINALLY finished the Sec 3 Squad Relay System (:
Hope it will work because I spent like hours on that, typing out all those numbers and stuff.
I am happy because there's Maths and Physics Remedial this week :D
I bet you all must think that I am crazy. Got remedial still so happy. Hahas because our class got no remedials when other classes have so now finally got remedial, of course happy lor :D

I suddenly love the exam seating arrangement a lot even though I am sitting right at the back and I cannot see the board clearly. I love the back seat now! Can we dun change back? >< LOL
So ya..I suddenly at a loss of words!
Hahas whatever :D
I am looking forward to getting 409's Class Tee! I bet our class tee will own all the classes because we are 409 :D Aren't you all jealous?! HAHAS!

BYE!

Nothing interesting happen today except the good news that CCC Girls Team did well.
APPLAUSE for all of them :D
So sad I cannot go watch. Nevermind, when they get into finals, I will go watch :D
I believe both guys and girls team can do it de (:
So ya today was quite okay except the part where a cadet pissed me off.
I was seriously pissed.
I sent a message to that cadet because I need his email
So the conversation starts like this:
Me: What's your email add?
The cadet: Who u
Me: ur IC Geraldine =.=
The cadet: huh I still dunno who u... npcc?
Me: do you have 2 cca? obviously its npcc lah
Like wth lah, its like before that I already smsed everyone np msg so they should already saved my number and this person just pissed me off with his stupid messages.
Lucky not all the cadets are like him, if not I think I will age faster like seriously? getting pissed makes you old. LOL
Anyway, I think the issue that had been troubling me have finally been solved.
Quite glad that its solve because I dun wan to feel awkward talking to a gd fren anymore.
So ya...
By the way, almost everyone in 409 says that I am scandalous. lol.
I admit I talk to guys, but the thing is as least from my pov, i dun think I flirt with them?
And the main point is, I don't like anyone of them so how can that even be scandalous.
Who say girls and guys cannot just purely be good frens? lol.
and being close with juniors doesn't equal to 姐弟恋.. o.o Although Mr Chia said age doesn't matter yesterday after school when he see me o.O
So its like people always say I am scandalous, actually i dun mind but sometimes it just feels abit umm idk how to describe. make me seem like some bitch who likes to stick with guys. I am not.
Maybe some of you don't believe but I will prove it to you that if you see me that way, you are totally wrong.
I don't put guys in front of my friends.
If I ever pangseh my friends because of a guy, like on friday I didn't go out with dor n eve after sch, tts because before they asked me, the person already asked me and there is really some serious stuff in between that I need to go and not because I 重色轻友
Sometimes I feel abit tired explaining but ya, sometimes people say in a jokingly manner which of course I wouldn't mind but when some people say it until that I talk to guys means I have sth on with them or what, I need to clarify. Don't believe, its up to you. I wun change just because of how you see me. If you have chosen to look at me in that wrong point of view of yours, I have got nothing to say but just too bad because I care more about my friends who believe me rather than those who just think me in that way.
Family and friends are always before guys. I don't like people who 重色轻友 and so I wun ever do that. I don't know how many of you out there believe me, but all I got to say is
If you believe me, thank you
If you don't, then not my problem already.
Whats the use of explaining when you don't even believe right?
So ya thats all I wanna say...
Nitex people (:
Cya tmr perhaps?
:D

"Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You’re always close enough to touch, but never quite close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart."

Yesterday was a lousy day...
Everything just seem so wrong...
Is it my mistake? Maybe it is, maybe its not... I really don't know...
I really didn't expect things to turn out this way...
Okay nevermind its quite sensitive issue so I shall not blog it here.

Anyway thanks Lito for his encouraging and motivating long messages.
Its really very long message but yet his messages mean a lot.
It sorta enlighten me? and of course make me feel better I guess?
He's a nice friend, who can be both nice and =.=

Yesterday night I had a dream...
That dream seemed so real and its like a preview of what will be happening...
Getting me ready in advance so that I would not be sad when it really happen...
nevermind, I shall go study for CTs.

It was great talking to some people yesterday night...
Some people who seem kiddish in the appearance may not be kiddish in their heart...
They actually understand alot...
We really cannot satisfy everyone... I finally understood that...

I hope before leaving, he will tell me that he truly enjoy NP...

Mr Busy is nice :D
Sent me sms to ask if I am feeling better! Hahas.
And ask me to take care of myself! :D
Mr Busy is such a good friend (:

270th post

I am sick ):
In this festive season with FLU and SORETHROAT?
Oh god, it doesn't match at all!
I feel so terrible now with all the sneezing and with my throat burning.
Why is 2010's CNY so ): for me? lol. Idk what to say already.
So ya, is doing A maths now...
With all the uncomfortableness, it makes doing maths even worse than usual.
Chemistry Re-test! I haven even started preparing yet. I am so dead...
Why does Chemistry appear to be that Chim for me while Physics seem to be so friendly?
It makes no sense at all. Both are Sciences.
Lucky I didn't take Biology. If not I think I can jump off the building already.
2 Sciences is already giving me such a big headache.
3 Sciences I think I will lose my brain. LOL!
My Sciences seriously sucks I guess? Can't seem to understand anything about Chemistry.
For one moment, I understand.
Then the next, I forget everything.
Does my brain hates Chemistry so much that they are behaving like they are the like poles, which repel each other whenever they are in contact?
Oh no, please don't let this happen. They must be unlike charges!
Anyway thanks Mr L for those messages.
They certainly brought interests back to my life.
Hmm...I am so freaking tired now.
Hate Flu & Sorethroat!
Please let them get out of my life NOW!
):

CNY Celebration in Nanhua was quite good?
I like the CDS performance :D
but yea, something which I never want to know was told to me today.
And somethings may not seem as perfect as it is. Nevermind I shall concentrate on Commons Now.
Aiming for all As.
I listed out a whole list of things to do and wanna see? Its a whole lot chunk!

TO DO LIST:

1) Sec 3 Squad Relay System (Email Joanna)
2) E Maths Probability Homework:
- Ex 2.1 to 2.4 [Questions: All the Further Practice]
3) Maths Past Years Common Test Papers
4) English SRP
5) Learn Spelling
6) Finish Chinese Compo
7) Finish ALL the Chinese SRPs
8) Chemistry Holiday Homework
9) Revise for Chemistry Re-test [Electrolysis]
10) Physics DC curcuits Worksheet + Notes
11) Physics Test: Current Electricity (18/02/2010)
12) Prepare Geography Notes:
- 3 Chapters of Development
- 1 Chapter of Geography of Food
13) Prepare Elect History Notes:
- Cold War till Impacts of Korean War
14) Social Studies Worksheets
15) Prepare Social Studies Notes:
- Chapter 1 + Terrorism
- A part of Globalisation
16) Revise E Maths:
- Standard Deviation
- Quartiles and Percentiles
- Mathematics in Practical Situations
17) Revise A Maths:
- Binomial Theorem
- Trigonometric Functions
- Simple Trigonometric Identities and Equations
18) Revise Physics:
- Waves
- Sound
- Static Electricity
- Current Electricity
19) Revise Chemistry:
- Electrolysis
- Introduction to Organic Chemistry
- Alkenes
- Alkanes
20) English Comprehension Practice
21) HCL Practices
22) Plan Parade and do proposals

Very nice right? CNY holidays doesn't seem like holidays at all. For god sake, its like I have to spend everyday doing homework and revision. Sad face.
Lol I deleted all the messages from someone. Maybe I am really determined to forget about everything? I am trying...
Even without him, life still goes on...
At least I know friends in 409 are cool, friends in NP rocks and all my other NICE NICE friends pieced up my life :D
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE (:
"BE HAPPY AND SMILE"

Today was TIE day.
Everything was okay I supposed?
Saw William quite a few times today in school. Actually really wanted to tell him something so I shall just say it here:
Hmm, I never regret knowing you as a friend. I didn't say junior because I don't think we sound like a pair of senior and junior, more like a pair of good friends eh? I bet you agree to that. Hahas.
Anyway really wanna thank you a lot a lot for everything that you had did.
Being nice enough to be there when you know what happen...
Being nice enough to tell everyone that I am just trying to create a sense of urgency among the Sec 3s because of the Kang Wen incident.
Seriously, after everything that you did, I really began to wonder if I am really 16 because I seem to be more childish than you. In the sense you are able to look at things more maturely than me.
It seems to be like you are always the one helping others.
So ya, thanks for everything. It was all appreciated.
I hope everything will go smoothly for you and I really hope to hear you tell me happily one day about you getting the cup of tea you want :D
William is a nice guy, everyone must be nice to him k? :D
Hahas(:
So ya.. the best part of 2010 is that I really think all my friends rocks!
And, I think I am beginning to love my Sec 3s alot.
Maybe some of them may not really like me? But I love taking them (:
Hope we can really form an elite squad together :P
Physics was fun today :D
I did 2 questions on the board! HEEHEE! LOVE PHYSICS!!!!!
I am determined to get A1 for Physics.
Not because of what I promised someone, but because I really want to.
Anyway after what that had happened, I realised dreams are sweet but when you woke up, everything turns bitter. You had to get use to tasting the bitter because dreams are just dreams, some may come true whereas some would never...
Nevermind, I had woken up from that once I thought was a beautiful dream, but when I woke up, I really find it difficult to face the reality. I hope I never knew that it would be that tough to overcome it...
but nevertheless, I am still me.
I will continue to be happy again, like how I used to be when I was still in that dream...

Parade today.
It was I don't know how to say.
I was totally freaked out when Kang Wen fell.
His expression was oh my god super scary, and I was totally shocked.
Was damn worried when he went to the nearby clinic with Kang Hui.
And they came back, giving me that happy look on their faces. I was so damn worried.
Lucky Kang Wen is okay. Now I have a phobia of curbs.
It was super scary experience.
My Sec 3 Squad is prone to injuries. Idk why but I hope there would not be any injured man next parade.
So ya the small little heart to heart talk session was okay I guessed?
Everyone there got a nickname.
Zhi Hui - The insurance guy
Jenn Yeong - The constipated one (LOL I think stressman not bad leh but they suggested this one instead)
Zheng Yu - The gl one
Jie Sheng - The silent killer
Stephanie - Ms Emo
Zan Hong - The Squad Lady
Qin Yin - The caring one
Dean - The innocent one
Andrew - The playboy
Tian Ci - The gold digger
Sam - The horny hill
Nigel - The twisted one
Yong Lin - The old man
Lol Actually I think they are quite okay? Feel abit closer to them more than those CC comp people except Junwei who is my twin?
Okay anyway, heard feedbacks from someone that some people don't really like me because I say they cannot laugh and I laughed?
So ya, I din do that in today's parade and ya its my leadership skills, if u are unhappy with me, fine I accept it, as long as you all can keep up to the standard I want, u all want loathe me also can.
But ya who wants to form enemies right?
obviously friends are better so it really depend on you to decide between friend or enemy.
Thats all I have got to say..
Shall go check out on Kang Wen tmr...
Bye!

Many things happen in ONE go...
Happy or Sad the day still goes on...
So, I have decided to learn to face all the unhappiness...
I have friends that care alot about me...
I appreciate all that they had did for me...
But this time round, I hope I can conquer it myself...
I hope I can walk out of this dark journey myself...
I don't want to stop half-way and let my tears fall, waiting for the light to brighten up that dark path...
I want to be the light myself...
I want to be brave and strong...
I believe I can do it...
I believe as my friends, you all will be there to support me yea?
Thanks alot
There is no smile in this post...
because I hope my smile will be a real and genuine one...
And after all that had happened, although I begin to doubt the phrase: "Nothing is impossible",
But still, I carry that little hope that the phrase will come true someday.
I will wait for that someday to arrive because I am not one who give up that easily...
At least I know if its worth it, I don't mind...
All the best to myself...
I hope after all of these, I will be a brand new ME

All of us practically SCREAMED when Mr Tay told us this news.
Omg seriously I think Sec 4 Squad'10 is the best! :D
WE ROCK! Hahas. So damn happy because at least the efforts I put in for compiling the UOPA is not wasted. Actually I was really quite depressed at the last few days of submission of the UOPA cos everything just seem to go wrong suddenly and we need to make alot of last minute changes. Plus at that time, still got the CCA extravaganza FDC training and I and Rachel and Simin really missed out alot. I remember that last 2 days for submission, I almost broke down because of UOPA. Its like it has been really a tough journey throughout. There were times when I really feel like giving up but everyone has high hopes on us, and I would definitely not want to see their disappointed faces when the result is announced.
Finally we did the unit proud before we step down.
I think I will really miss NP after POP.
lol I think my mood recently is quite extreme.
Is either VERY happy or VERY sad.
But from ytr until today, my mood is :D
Because of him and of course UOPA results (:
He brightened up my day today :D
Its like his sweet little gesture to show his support and all those little words can make me feel so happy (:
Promised him to stay happy :D
Anyway ytr parade was super epic.
Nigel was Hahahaha..so funny sia. lol I sound so sadistic here.
But he twisted his neck because he laugh until too extreme, like LOL!
But lucky he's okay already (:
And he rocks lah, seriously, not like some particular junior who omg sucks like shit.
I realised I dun really like Phua Chu Kang. So sadddd..dunno why so many people find that he is amusing. All I know is that his SHOWS are super NICE.
Hahas kk actually i gt alot of things to post bt ya vry tired alr so ya i put sleeping as my top priority now..brb :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D
Hahas. Today was a HAPPY day.
I think its the best birthday I ever had in Nanhua. But its really very sad that it will be my last birthday in Nanhua. I really want to thanks the following people:
Nick, Keefoong, Sir Edwin and Kaisheng who wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY one day earlier (:
Sze Hwee, Haowei, Daphne who wished me on 12 midnight :D
Cailing, Simin, Nigel, Meng Yeow, Derek, Wenzhe, Pei Qin, Joven, Junzhe, Gaopeng, Lito, Lin Fang, Stephanie who smsed me a Happy birthday message.
Jing Zhen, Yuhan, Joanna, Billy Chia, Mou Jun, Nicholas, Evelyn, Kelly, Rachel, Joevenn, Jian Sheng, Candis who said Happy Birthday to me.
Thanks to Those who wished me on Facebook too!
And of course not forgetting people who gave me presents!
Simin: THANKS FOR YOUR ELMO AND COOKIE MONSTER PUPPETS! THEY ARE SO CUTE! LOVE THEM TO THE MAX :D
Jieyi: THANKS FOR THE "DO IT MYSELF" BEAR. ITS REALLY SOMETHING COOL :D
Dorothy: THANKS FOR THE LIMITED EDITION KEYCHAIN YOU MADE SPECIALLY FOR ME AND THE SMALL LITTLE CARD :P
Veldas: THANKS FOR ALL THE LITTLE SMALL GOODIE BAG WITH THE VERY CHIO BIRTHDAY CARD YOU DREW SPECIALLY FOR ME :P
Xiao Fen: THANKS FOR THE NUGGETS YOU ASKED YOUR MUM TO COOK FOR ME EARLY IN THE MORNING. LOVE YOU TO THE MAX ;D
Shu Ning: THANKS FOR YOUR VERY NICE STRESSBALL AND THE VERY NICE CARD :D
William, Timothy, Paul and Shihan for THE BIG ADORABLE CHIPMUNK SOFT TOY :D
And also THANK YOU WILLIAM FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY CARD AND JELLYBEANS :D
OMG I LOVE THIS YEAR'S BIRTHDAY :D
I LOVE 2ND OF FEBRUARY AND I LOVE MY FRIENDS :D
Sorry if I left anyone of you out.. ><
BUT THANKS ALOT FOR MAKING MY DAY SUCH A MEMORABLE ONE :P

261th post :D Hahas..its quite difficult for me to post regularly so got hundred over posts alr very proud of myself.heehee (:
Anyway today was quite a good day. Wonder why? Because everyone is good to me.
Firstly, dorothy share her food that she brought to school with me
Then, dorothy give up her toilet to me when we went to change after PE.
Next, Daphne went home with me and she went to eat with me! Haha!
And and and, Ashley gave me 2 sweets! Hahas
Today everyone is so nice to me :D
Ohya and William asked me to Jiayous while I was doing my runs around the school during PE.
Stamina went down quite alot I guessed? Din run for quite a long time already. Must start to train because I want a GOLD for NAPFA :D
So ya today was quite an interesting day. Maths lesson was quite funny as usual.
Mr Chia used me as an example o.o
Then Geography was funny too. Mr Tay begin to blend into our joking attitude during his lessons.Hahas and me and xiao fen both agree that weikun only speak up during Geo lessons.
Sad face Mr Liu. Hahas.
Chinese was omg hilarious. Pearlynn was like asking cai lao shi to postpone the test and yay he agreed to postpone to next monday (:
AND THERE IS NO TEST TOMORROW :D
AND I GOT 15/15 FOR THE FIRST PHYSICS TEST OF YEAR 2010 :D
Hahas so happy.
Anyway I went to read some people's blog and ya is quite happy for a friend of mine because I think he is getting his cup of tea soon. Hahas. lol Some people say NCC guys are hot..lol NP guys also quite okay lah (: Hahas
LOL :D
I AM SO HAPPY NOW :D
PEOPLE! LETS SMILE :D
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Today's parade was oh my god, one word - TIRING!
Its quite difficult taking a whole squad myself. Its hard to teach them drills since I am suppose to demo to them how does the drill works. But it was quite fun taking the Sec 3s. Its like a lot of laughter in the parade and they really quite cute in some way in their actions. Maybe I will begin to love them? Who knows?
So after parade went home with clique. It was really late when I reached home and as usual, the nagging and stuff. I haven prepare my Full U for tmr's promo and I am still here blogging. FAIL. LOL.
Suddenly feel like having a wish. If I have a wish, I will wish that all my wishes will come true. sounds stupid eh? But because I really got quite a few wishes and I am greedy, I want all of them to come true, but I doubt its possible. No one can predict or see what will happen the next second, the next minute, the next day, not to say the future. There is no definite answer in somethings. of cos this does not applies to academic with those standard answers.
I feel a bit weird today. People, reality and many others are making me feel both happy, sad and disappointed. I don't really know what to say.
I just hope next tuesday will be a memorable one. Its my last year celebrating my birthday in Nanhua...

Physics test today was Managable :D
I SERIOUSLY THINK PHYSICS ROCK :D
Hahas. Anyway I was extremely tired today. During Maths lesson, I almost fell asleep. This is the first time I almost fell asleep during maths lesson. Normally, Mr Chia's loud voice will keep me awake, however today it doesn't seem to have any effect on me. LOL
Then recess was fun playing truth or dare with so many people. Hahas. I think we can form a snack gang in class and have like a small party session with game during recess (:
Its so 409 can?! cos only 409 have :D Hahas
AND I THINK ORGANIC CHEMISTRY IS FUN :D
So after school went home with Evelyn. Went big book shop. Hahas love going big book shop with her because she can help me decide while I give her comments about what she want to buy. (:
I am not used to someone keep saying thanks to me.
It seems so formal.
hahas lol.
I am who I am. I wouldn't change just because of you. (:

I simply love these pictures:

I thought of what to make for someone's birthday gift already :D
Smart me (:
I feel so proud of myself now. Hahas. Must quickly finish the present if not later common tests coming then no time to do already.
Anyway I am so looking forward to Friday's parade. Secret! Don't tell you why. If not no fun already :P
I am quite high at the moment...
Anyone can pei me go IMM tmr please?!?!
I want to buy materials...someone nice please say YES! PLEASE!
lol. I think I am temperamental recently.
Nevermind, shall control my mood and switch it to the happy one :D
And I want to clarify something like seriously.
Who ask Joshua and gang keep saying I did something sneaky with Kanghui at the stairs.
Like LOL? We were just pure talking to each other. And it was like he happened to be on duty and ya I went to ask him about something lorh. Like that also sneaky =.=
And seriously is there a way to identify twins?
I only know KangHui is councillor and Kang Wen is not.
And they have different colour specs? LOL. I dun usually observe people's specs. I only recognise the face.But if both faces look identical, how am I suppose to differentiate who is who?
Do A maths differentiation? I doubt it works! Hahas!
Omg this is so i dunno what to say.Hahas. But I don't discriminate twins okay?
LOL.
I think 409 is fun too :D
Physics SPA WAS OH MY GOD SO FUN :D
LOVE PHYSICS!
and there's PURE GEOGRAPHY LESSONS TOMORROW! HOORAY :D
LOVE GEOGRAPHY!
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
I think its fun getting to know more juniors but its abit weird when everyone is on the topic of 姐弟恋 o.o
hahas..ok i shall stop here and go finish up all my hmk :D
i will be BACK! :D
HAHAS!

Today was quite okay I guess?
It was the usual lessons and stuff.
But I was quite happy about something which isn't time to announce it now.
Anyway I need someone to teach me Chemistry.
Anyone free to tutor me chem?
Wednesday will not be free because need go JP. Can we go celebrate on wednesday? Hahas just joking..
I feel so i dunno how i feel now. Weird feeling. I feel so empty...
Sometimes I wish I can just leave, leave this city that is filled with those unhappy memories.
I have the urge to just leave suddenly and don't ever come back. Although I know I will miss quite alot of things and people here. But seriously I am very very tired...don't feel like facing up to reality anymore. I feel like escaping, escaping to a place where I need not worry about anything...a place where I can smile really truthfully.
Its not like I cannot depend on my friends, but sometimes, I just can't find the one to talk to, the one to share all my unhappiness with, the one that I can just tell about every bit or detail of my life and wouldn't feel sian just listening to me. I want someone who support me, at least I know if I fall, he or she will still be standing behind, supporting me...
lol this sounds like some emo post. Don't like to be emo but dunno why just suddenly feel this way...
I don't even know if I am truly happy now...
Always have the happy happy attitude in school, joking around with my friends but are these all the true side of mine?
idk...

8 more days...i wonder if any miracle will happen on that day...

I am influenced by Paul.
Paul so bad, he is making me jealous by telling me, he learnt the vioin, piano and guitar.
AND PAUL IS GOING TO TEACH ME HOW TO PLAY THE VIOLIN FOC :D
SO HAPPY! I really want to learn an instrument..
so thanks Paul a lot a lot a lot.
Anyone wants to teach me Piano? :D
Okay so ya, I am quite happy yesterday and today. Don't know why :D
I am not that sad about my phone anymore...
learn to be more optimistic after the phone incident...
I din know that I can actually get over it like seriously? But I think I am going down to JP to ask how much does it cost to replace the cover. If its reasonable, maybe I will change. But if its too ex, which I believe it would be, then nevermind lorh, but I want buy somethings to decorate the cover so that my phone look even more unique :D
Now my phone got william's artwork. Hahas, so unique right? you all also dun have. Hahas. :P
I feel so 幸福 now :D
So many friends who care for me, so many friends who dote on me.
I LOVE MY FRIENDS :D

Air Rifle competition briefing today.
The buffer time is seriously long...they are just so PROFESSIONAL to add in so MUCH buffer time.
We spend 2/3 of the time there waiting, with 1/3 of the time actually listening to the briefing. COOL! =.=
The air rifle is HEAVY. and its really very heavy. Not like what paul say.
Paul: Its not the rifle heavy, its you too weak"
LOL, screw him, like that say me.
Anyway I seem to feel much much better today. The unique scratches and stuff on my phone just take it as a form of decoration lor. But I think I am going down JP to the service centre to ask them check my phone. Its behaving quite weird recently. lol, sound like some pet. Hahas, its just a phone.

Haiz..why must 2nd Feb falls on Tues?
So sad... ):
I got tuition on that day and those people I want to celebrate with, cannot celebrate with me ):

I FEEL SO MIXED NOW...
I FEEL SO BAD FOR MAKING SOMEONE EMO...
I FEEL SO UNHAPPY ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED JUST NOW BUT SERIOUSLY, I DIDN'T BLAME YOU...
I FEEL SO AIYAH I WANT TO CRY...
BUT CANNOT CRY OUT..
FORGET IT! DON'T GIVE A DAMN ALREADY!
ITS JUST A STUPID PHONE! GERALDINE SOH!
FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF NOW, LIKE SERIOUSLY!
SO PERFECTIONIST FOR WHAT!
ARGH! I FEEL SO SPEECHLESS NOW.

Everything is just so wrong today...
Everyone is unhappy...
About... and about... and about...
lol.
and my fone...okay nevermind, shall continue psycho'ing myself that its really okay.

A: You are a good catch
B to A: You wanna catch me arh?
A: Lol, I don't know how to fish!
Hahas so funny! :D

Actually wanted to post about something happy but ya someone ruined everything.
Now I feel so i don't how to describe that feeling. I ask you all, do I do like someone who will keep pestering people about their relationship life? Is like, I wouldn't even ask unless the person is willing to tell me. And is like I feel a bit sad lah, that someone, whom I really thought could be very very good friends with, doubt me in this way. Its so funny isn't it? I will only tease about rumours, and when its serious, I wouldn't even tease, or should I say if I really teased, I will apologise sincerely. But I just wonder how can that person think me in this way. Nevermind, maybe I am really such a person to that person...
And I actually thought of being nice to save up some money to buy some basketball related stuff for that person..nevermind I don't know what to say already...
kk i rly dunno what to say, actually wanted to vent anger here..
bt i realised, it wasn't really anger in some sense, just disappointment perhaps?
...

I hate it when I sms people but they don't reply and I still bother waiting for their reply...
It just make me seem so stupid...

There's no homework today, besides reading up on SS on the Iraq-Kuwait conflict.
So its quite relaxing. First relaxing tuesday ever.
Tuesday has never been relaxing at all. Have English Tuition from 6 to 8.
So normally if there's a huge mountain of homework, I will have to stay up late to complete them which I usually don't end up finishing everything and I went to sleep.
I don't really have that perseverance to motivate myself from not dozing off while doing homework. Maybe its just because I am too slack? Maybe bah, I don't know.
So today was quite okay I guess?
As usual, Chinese lessons were slack, but managed to learn quite a lot.
Actually, among all the subjects, Chinese periods are like the only periods where I can slack down a bit. All the other subject lessons seem to be so tense up. Especially humanities lessons like SS and History.
And, today we have a last minute Physics SPA. Okay it was so SUDDEN u know? And I had to borrow long ruler from Joanna. But I din really blame Mr Ling for it..because I am beginning to love Physics more and more and maybe 爱屋及乌, I also sorta like Mr Ling now? Hahas.
Physics lessons are fun (:
There's PE today too! It was EXHAUSTING! TIRING! BUT FUN! :D
Rugby is all about running around with that ball that looks like an egg? Hahas. I was totally out of breath running here and there. But it was all worth it, cos its fun (:
Then SS, Ms Sathi started scolding us for not doing her work. She's really quite fierce when come to scolding people. Scary! But it was quite enriching too! It seems like this year's SS life will be quite tough without using POWERFUL VOCABULARIES which she proclaim that we MUST use.
Haiz, then I must really add more words to my vocabulary bank le.
And English Lesson was Haha fun (:
Ms Rani is nice, and our class can always make her laugh with us! Hahas.
And the 309's check the air flow curse is back! OMG! I hope this stupid curse will get away soon. PLEASE! I want to have proper lesson lah, like seriously?!
And!!! My English essay was printed out as a good example! First time in my life in nanhua you know? Cos my English seriously suck, and I feel so happy lah xD
After school, went eat with clique and homed (:
Haiz, I feel so sian nowadays...
Life is filled of the study study mood and I really have the urge to like talk to someone and tell him or her about every little tiny things that happen everyday so at least I have someone to talk to and wun feel so stress?
Before I end, there's something I MUST declare!
I am NOT scandalous okay? LOL!
Isn't there this group in facebook that says, "Talking to the opposite sex doesn't mean I am flirting"
Lol, I don't like to flirt with guys like seriously, talk can flirt like omg lah, I not that despo plus I not those kind of uhem people, who only know how to flirt in her life..lol..
so ya shall end off here...
BYE! :^)

Today was a HIGH day!
Was quite an enjoyable day in school. Met a lot of OC people.
It is really quite strange you know. When you don't know someone, you will never ever notice his or her presence. However, after you know them, you will find that you can see them almost anywhere. Hahas so funny. Lol.
Was quite high during PE but today PE nt much fun because its free play but there's no place. So have to play badminton in that tiny little area lor. If got free play, then can play Captains, it will be BEST! :D Hahas
Then maths lesson = laughing session.
Mr Chia was super hilarious I tell you. He was like scolding people and a few of us were like laughing non-stop. Because his way of scolding people damn epic! He is like correcting our mistake on binomial theorem, then he kp saying "I say plus dot dot dot" then keep repeating plus dot dot dot. Then he is damn funny lah. You all should see how he scold people de. Then is like Mr Chia spoilt our class duster and I think the teacher's table and chair too. Hahas you will know why if you see how he conduct his lessons. Better not tell you all, keep you in suspence ;P
*SECRET* + *Evil laughter* Hahas..
Then history lesson was fun too. Love history. Love Geography too!
Humanities ROCKS! :D
After school, settle some np stuff for Friday.
I hope she doesn't attitude us on Friday's parade, if not I can't guarantee that I can don't show her a gl face. Seriously I can't stand her. She think she very great is it? Expect us to help her wash and prepare her uniform? Think she really queen arh? Nevermind, no point getting pissed because of her.
Actually was in quite a happy mood de, but it was all dampened after I get home.
Haiz nevermind don't feel like mentioning anyway..just totally no mood already.
Hope tomorrow will be a better day...
Ohya and I "jiao shuang" alot np people today! Hahas! learn from dunno who de. Hahas!
and...
I wanna talk to people now... ):

Before the clock ticks at 12,
Just wanna wish EVELYN...

Back from OC!
Missed me? Hahas. Bet you people missed me ALOT :D
OC was quite fun, especially with my group of game masters :D
Get to know lots of people..
People like William, Paul, Timothy, Jian Le, Xinhui and many more lah! :D
The Sec 1s are quite okay too but abit too princess and prince liao. Everything also so choosy.
Rmb ytr dinner time, william was helping to give out the veggie, then i give out nuggets, then alot sec 1s dun wan veggie mah, so william damn funny, go insist on giving them veggie and those who say dun wan gets more. Hahas and we came out the quote: "Say Yes to Veggie and No to Nuggets!"
Hahas so cute right? :D
And Paul was like whole day using holding on his phone and will smile at sms de. Hahas funny expression but he is also another responsible councillor (:
Timothy arh! That 好好先生， EVERYTHING also volunteer to help de, give himself so much stress! Tsk! and he is really quite nice lah, just like to GL-ed me abit :D
And he gave me the name "Tiramisu"
Hahas. shall consider putting that as my new class tee name :D
Then William arh. tt idk how to say guy. The way we get to know each other was quite funny and unique. It all started with the "stool and chair" joke o.O
Then after that, actually we abit like teasing each other de, then he will lyk gl-ed me a little bt quite nice guy. Pei me up to get my water bottle from tt dark and scary sky garden. it was really quite spooky yesterday lorh. Then once again pei us up to our night activity station cos all gals mah then abit scared lah, so he 英雄救美, be our "bodyguard".
It was quite a nice experience with all of them around (:
OC was quite a long story and I dun really wanna elaborate everything so ya..just the few main points lorh.
Jian Le and Xinhui was very nice too :D
They very special in some way. Hahas
k lah, shall stop here..
cya soon :D
BYE! (:

I LOVE HALF DAYS :D
Half day school = slacky lessons. Hahas.

I LOVE CHIT CHAT SESSION WITH 409 CLIQUE :D
Chit chat session = heart to heart talk = feel much better after spamming out all my little secrets (:

I HAVE THE URGE TO EAT UDDERS ICE-CREAM NOW ><
Eating ice cream = release stress = take away problems = make me feel better.

Life's been so busy...
Muscles are aching from all the physical training I joined in with those peeps in CC Comp ytr.
But nevermind, its all worth while.
Ohya and sorry to my beloved NP clique for not going out with you all today.
I promised my class ppl alr before hand. Sorrie ):
I am so freaking tired now...
OC tmr, haven even pack my bag yet...
HAIZ...

iaminadunnowhattodomood...AGAIN!

Mengyeow seems to be officially dao'ing me for some reasons which I don't know.
Haiz nevermind, want dao jiu dao lorh, I also don't know what to say already.
TIMETABLE IS CHANGING AGAIN?!
so stupid..3 timetable for Term 1 alr. WOW!
And NYAA sucks because I got no skills and I don't know what to write for the Skills section. ><
Listening to mengyeow's blog songs now...quite nice.Hahas, he always have a good taste in choosing chinese music.lol just being random..
Anyway I love Physics ALOT ALOT now. And I am beginning to like Chemistry lessons too :^)
:^) <--- isn't this cute? This is our emoticon leh! love this emoticon to the max :D
Hahas ok..shall end my post here..nth to write abt de...
I hope OC will be fun...
hope tmr chit chat session with 409 clique will be fun too...
nitex ppl! (:

ijustwannatotalktoyou...

It seems to be another century since I last posted?LOL.
Anyway today's O Level Result Release Day. Got A1 for Chinese (: Quite happy as it is my 1st A1 for my O Level Subjects and I am going to make sure there are more of that to come. Saw the Sec 4s collect their results in the hall, know their results statistics and the top scholars and blah. Can you imagine? Nan Hua's Top Scholars are mainly China PRC. They owned Singaporeans like omg? But seriously, they really study very hard which makes their results stand out than us. BUT, Singaporeans did us proud too. I think there are quite a few Nan Hua Singaporeans Top Scholars too (:
Hmm, seeing the previous batch of Sec 4s collect results make me even more stressed. It seems like every minute and second is super precious and all the minutes and seconds can be used for studying studying and still studying. I wonder what will I become after all of these "studying process". Anyway Mr Nicholas Liu said something which I think it really make some sense. He said that we get good results for ourselves, not for the teachers, the school or our parents. After today, nobody will ever rmb that you scored an A1 or distinction for a particular subject. But it is your result slip that will stay along with you forever. You score and do well for yourself not for others. Yes, tts true. Sometimes I think that I am studying because it is compulsory and my parents always forced me to? But in actual fact, studying benefits ourselves. We study not for the sake of other people, but ourselves. So we must do ourselves proud and collect our results with lots of confidence yea? Lets Jiayous! :D
Quite a lot of things happen recently. Life filled with happiness, sadness, anger, and slackiness.
Don't really know what to say. But what I can say is that, I am quite disappointed in NP. lol. sorta dread going for NP alr. Hope this feeling can go away asap because I really love NP alot.
But still some people who followed the system of biasness pissed me off. People who say alot but no action sucks even more.
If you think I am talking about you, then think carefully yourself if you did the above. I din pin point anyone here so don't jump or hop into any conclusion. This is my blog, I have the freedom of speech. (:
Shall end my post here. GOODBYE :D
it just seems so hard to say ily...

Many things happened, don't really know how to start this post.
Okay nevermind, shall do the MOST IMPORTANT thing first.

I am back from Brisbane (:
Just got down from the plane yesterday.
I have hell lots to post!!!
Pics :D
It was a fun trip! Hahas.
But not posting now because I don't have the time. Shall post everything up by next week, preferably tomorrow. Hahas
Was super happy yesterday :D
Because of heehee dun tell you :P
And...
My relief A maths tuition teacher for today's lesson look like Mam Fiona and I am serious.
LOL.
hope he will be okay soon...

National Heritage Trail today(:
Actually it was okay but then my group ppl a bit de gl. From my pov, its okay that they joke with me, but when its time to be serious, they should be serious. NP is still NP and we emphasize on discipline.
But a bit disappointed that this trail is divided into 2 different groups.
I think group 1 is the quiet group and group 2 is the noisy group.
LOL. Mr Chew just now said that he rather be in the Grp 1 bus. Hahas. Group 1 ppl lyk so dead on the bus. practically no noise at all.
Then camped in school after going back to school...
waiting for Mr Chew to be back so that I can send the UOPA stuff to him so that he can pass to Mrs Lee just in case Mrs Lee needs it when I am overseas.
Will be away to brisbane this sunday and will only be back on the 5th of december :D
Dun miss me people! Hahas(:
Dunno if I am going for Open House anot. Hope that I can go. Missed it last year cos of my overseas trip. sigh ><
Then everyone pangseh me. so saddddd ):
so in the end, went home alone w/o lunch.
I am so hungry now :O <-- see my mouth so big..Hahas lols.
Waiting for my early dinner.
Anyway!! I love the number combination: "0216" :D
I wish I can read people's mind. Then I will know what is he thinking about.
I wanna talk to him :/
Nvm(: I shall talk to him on saturday :D before I leave Singapore. Hahas

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jerald: I din noe u will come to my blog! Hahas. anyway thanks(:
CANDIS :D: Yea, long time no chat alr. Hahas anyway thanks lots :D

Suddenly feel like posting since I don't really know who to talk to. Feels weird. A bit of the emoish feeling. lol. hate this feeling but it seems to be bugging me recently.
Actually nobody knows how bad, guilty and sad that I cannot make it for the Annual Camp.
Its like the last camp in my life in NP, but yet I missed this chance of being involved in this big event together with the squad. Jun Xian and Kai Sheng jokingly say I very slack, pon the camp and stuff. Although, they din really mean it, but I feel really bad when they say that.
Frankly speaking, I hate missing out NP events with the squad. I hate quarreling with my parents because of NP. I hate the feeling when the whole squad is working together to do something but yet I am not involved. I really hate the feeling of telling myself that its okay that I missed the events but at least some people will tell me what happened. Sometimes, I feel that me as the vice chair is so useless. I wondered why I am chosen to be the Vice. Like what Jerald said, my drills are not as good as Jing Zhen's and Jermaine's. I am also not that capable as them. Its like in my years in NP, Jing Zhen and Jermaine are like the ones always being enthu about NP, volunteering for almost everything so its like expected that they will take up the top 3 positions. Being the vice chair, I really learn a lot. I don't know how to describe that feeling, but I will feel exceptionally happy during parades, look forward to NP events and preparing or discussing about NP with the squad. Although I cannot deny that its really tiring throughout this whole journey, but I enjoyed the process.
And now, tomorrow's National Heritage Trip to discuss about the questions for the actual heritage trip on 26th, I don't think I will be going. But, actually I don't think anyone will mind bah. Since I already missed out the Annual Camp and many more other events.
Sometimes its like I am so extra in NP. Don't know why but I just hope to be part of it too. I want to be actively involved in all the NP activities but it just seem impossible.
Wonder why Jing Zhen's parents din really object her in being involved in NP too much but my parents do. Results seem to be the most important in their eyes. But I really love NP a lot.
Actually wanted to talk to a particular someone, someone who said to me that he care when I was in the saddest point in my life...someone whom I told everything to about my family matters...someone who promised me that he will message me about what happened when he is back...I am still waiting for his message but I doubt he will remember bah...
Lol, feel so emo all of a sudden.
Just ignore this post bah, its just something that I feel like telling if I talked to someone. But since I don't know who to talk to, I shall blogged instead. Anyway my blog is quite dead so not many will really visit it so I don't think it really matters.
):